Today is a bad day for me actually. Although my SIP placement was okay, but i still dun feel good. Not because of this. Some other things. I thought U will add colours to my life, ur presence was something that i anticipate. If i would have known all these had happen, i wish i didnt know u at all in the first place. I really dunno how clear am in in the right mind to go to this extend. Its just the beginning, or not even the beginning. But i am like crazy over you. Its really a misery for me, you know. All i needed was ur love. Finally, i couldnt kinda hold back anymore, i broke down and cried in my bed. It was a release for me. Its like finally. U said so much to me, so it was just empty promises? Lies? Whatever. I kept thinking and i really couldnt figured out why. Really. I felt such a failure, in all aspect. I couldnt sort of take it anymore, i ran outside for 3 rounds. And i kept walking, till my legs go wobble. I sat alone at the swimming pool, looking at the sky, hoping i will get an answer, but all i got was a blank of mind. U kept appearing in my mind and i really cant take u off.
Please, I doubt i'll have a peaceful sleep tonight if this is not settle.
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