What if everybody just leaves you?

I am starting to doubt myself. I constantly asked myself who am i. There are alot of friends around me, but how many of them are real, how many in the end will stay by your side? Why do people only think of me when they needed help, favour. Why do people only think of me when they needed compainent. Why do people only think of me when they needed another substitute. I kept pondering over these question to myself, but i know i wont get any answer. I never give up in having faith, things will turn better. But why cant i lead a better life, a simpler one. Why is it that things that are always mine will eventually be somebody elses one. And i am always at the losing end no matter what.  Nobody will ever initiate things, and i really dunno why i am going through all these shit. I always put all above me, but nobody seems to appreciate. I do admit, there are some friends that will always be there for me, stay with me and care for me. For that i greatly appreciate. Without these people, i wouldnt have survive so long. Friends are what makes u stay on in life, to have the courage to carry on and conquering the obstacles. I will cherish my friends no matter what, but it works both way. I need people to appreciate me too!

Pictures taken today, random i know.  But these are the people, i appreciate, really! (:

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