NOTES FROM UNDERGROUND

Down

2011-09-26T09:49:00.002+08:00

I don’t know where I’m at
I’m standing at the back
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

I'm not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing
But I’m missing way too much
So when do I give up, what I’ve been wishing for.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
I'll never know why it’s coming down, down, down.
Oh I am going down, down, down
Can’t find another way around
And I don’t want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
I never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
I'll never know why, it’s coming down, down, down.

LOVING MY WEEKENDS!

2011-09-26T09:41:00.000+08:00

Had a great night with Twinny and Darling. Though we only met like in the late afternoon, but we had hell lots of fun till night! Went shopping, makan and actually wanted to catch a movie, but we went vivo, sentosa inside USS to watch fireworks instead. LOL, and Qi was hungry but the shops like all close alrdy leh, and she got to buy liang teh (herbal tea) for her boyf. LOL!!! hahahaha

Its really a great hang out, a different weekend. LOVE IT! and we are alrdy planing for our next outing! TO ... USS! YAYY! weeheeeeeeeeeeee :D

I wanna go USS again leh. Like only went twice. Hasnt used the annual pass enough kay! HAHA

Oh well,actually was suppose to be meeting him and go for his friend's concert. Then my dear friends psycho me to stay with them, so ...... i didnt go with him :/

haha felt abit bad laa, but like kinda awkward only leh.

The man who cant be moved.

2011-09-22T12:01:00.001+08:00

Love this song- Very nice and smoothing to my ears. I like the way the lead sings it, with so much emotions and feelings inside. ( The man who cant be moved)

Just make me wanna play music again, and do covers with mu mu!!

Played my guitar yesterday, but i couldn't find back the passion that i once had. Maybe i need more time, some more.

But just give me some more time, i will be fine soon. I need to get over this, as i am trying very hard to get out of it.

Hang on, chevz.

SAWA DEE KA

2011-09-22T11:56:00.001+08:00

Yay! Gotta have lunch later with my dearies at a thai restaurant!! NAKHON KITCHEN, heard of it? they serve really great thai dishes especially dessert- RED RUBY!!!

Had our project interview just now, and its TKB. Goodness. hope its still not too bad, though it is very bad. LOL

But nvm, we just work hard and everything will be fine right, my team mates? <3

Anyway, gotta go play table tennis and squash later weehee! EXERCISE OKAY! :D

Words.

2011-09-22T11:42:00.002+08:00

Words are always left unspoken.

RELIEVE.

2011-09-20T14:30:00.002+08:00

Okay, oh wells. I've done something. And that something makes me feel kinda secured. Its better now, but hope it wont keep haunting me. At night, when i do the things i love to do, please jsut let me do it. It seems to be bothering me for so long. However, i am working very hard on it. Very very hard. I will try to do all that i can to make sure i wont fall down again.

Keep Thinking

2011-09-19T12:25:00.000+08:00

Oh wells, i shouldnt be thinking so much. But i cant help to think abt it all day long. Even in my dreams. I guess i am so bothered by it, and it seems to be taking over me. I probably should have come to know that reality and passion are so different. So what if you have passion for it but not what it takes. Though, i really feel like giving up. Such a tough route, but i really love what i am doing now. The Joy and fun is un-explainable. Seriously, i love it. But i know i must do something to carry on. This is such an agony if it goes on unsloved.

I Need Help.

Supp Again

2011-09-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

Got the resutls, and i got to take supp paper again. But its for Food Safety (FS) kinda like project one. And heard its not difficult to pass. So wasnt very worried. But still, am so disappointed with myself.

Anyway, that aside, i am gonna go JAMMING again on saturday night!! YAYYYYY! with mu mu and Leon. HEAVY METALS ROCKSS! hahaha (mu mu is so gonna kill me if she sees this! ) oh wells, every genre of music got its own attraction right? hehe.

Okay, and maybe sunday will be going to jam again, with Mu, Chan and his band. And prolly heading to church then to Syafiqah's house for raya dinner! (: WEEHEE. hope its a good weekend for me and my friends. Its the only days which i can relax myself after a whole week long of MP and MP and MP!!!!!!

I Love the times where i am all booked up and i have to crack my brains to think and plan for my time!! (:

Our Competition

2011-09-14T12:44:00.000+08:00

Mu and i was intending to join the channel U's singing competition. we had the video with us already and will be uploading to the site soon. Guys, please help to support us by spreading the word so if we got into the 12 shortlisted one, we will need your votes! cox it will be 50% professional votes and 50% public votes!

Compettion Video is Up!!

2011-09-14T12:43:00.001+08:00

Here's the link to the website to view our video. Please support!!!!

http://www2.mediacorp.sg/IJustWannaSing/gallery.htm

I had a dream

2011-09-13T14:37:00.001+08:00

I wanna go back to the times where i feel so comfortable with you. With your little touch and the soft peck on my lips. I Cant forget that feeling which is so close to my heart. Like as if, i can die in your arms. Theres so much i want to say but your so far away.

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Thoughts.

2011-09-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i just couldnt control my emotions and break down. Sometimes i wish i wasnt that emotional. I just need somebody to be there for me. But sometimes situation wasnt what we always expected and we often dont get what we want. Maybe that's life. I want a better life, i want people to appreciate me. I know there are angels around me, i will appreciate them but sometimes things just arent coming your way. Feelings are often the hardest to notice and you will get neglected soon when you are lost.

I need a comfortable zone to unleash myself, to be the real me. Sometimes keeping too much is quite disturbing. Like you have no one to turn to.

But i'll try to be me, try to come back, try to learn to be a better me.

TWINNYYYY!

2011-09-12T22:20:00.001+08:00

Met Twinny yesterday and we went to donate blood! Am so happy cox its the third time i am donating blood! (:

And i think you guys should really go down and donate blood. Cox its not only helping others, but yourself too. You save lives and are given the piorirty to use the blood if in need.

Then we went bugis and i bought quite a number of stuffs ( As usual ) haha. After walking whole of bugis village, we decided to walk to suntec and eat astons. But sadly when we got there, astons wasnt serving chicken that day and we were like.. so sad :(

We then ordered fish cox we were freaking hungry!! and twinny treated me to the dinner(: after that we went to walk walk shop shop! Its really nice to be with twinny cox she is someone whom i can be with so comfortably. <3

Black pepper fish (: its AWESOME!

Fried fish that twinny had! :D

Mushroom soupppp (:

JAMMING BABYYYYY!

2011-09-11T00:38:00.001+08:00

WOOOOT! Went jamming just now and guess what? ITS AWESOMEEEEE! ^ ^ love the instruments there, the people and the music. TOTALLY rawks can! We sang Lips of an angel by Hinder, Fireworks by Katy perry and Liang shan bo yu juliet by cao ge. The chinese song was for our channel U's singing competition. and its like awesome laa pls! Thanks to Lenson, mu mu's friend, he is really a great help! (:

Andddddd the 45 seconds competition video is upppppp! I guess i shall just post it on the site itself and give you guys the links here! GO click LIKE LIKE LIKE many many many time!!

MY 20TH BIRTHDAY

2011-09-08T12:03:00.001+08:00

Celebrated my 20th and it was awesome cox my poly babies surprised me like 3 days in a row. They started on monday ( 5th September) then tuesday then wednesday. which wed was the actual one. hahah, its really so nice of them. appreciate what they have done for me. Hope to extend my heartfelt greatest love to Muchen, huiqin, Hsueh ting, Pei Shan And sansin for giving me such wonderful memories!The present, and cakes. Thanks loves!! <3

From Clique! <3

Chocolate sponge cake? Nice!!!! <3

At sentosa restaurant!

the Pan-cake Cake! Thanks sansin love!

My first cake! (:

07 September!

THIS IS HOW I SPELL L.O.V.E!

I REALLY LOVE THEM!

Pricetag cover!

2011-08-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, this is a cover by me and my gf mu chen! ENJOY! (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9S9hbbSjZc&feature=channel_video_title

Pricetag cover!

2011-08-25T23:17:00.001+08:00

Hi guys, this is a cover by me and my gf mu chen! ENJOY! (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9S9hbbSjZc&feature=channel_video_title

Vivo City

2011-08-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

Met mu mu last week and we went vivo. just catch up session! <3

and i totally loveeeee it! btw pictures are finally up!

Love my girls!

2011-08-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

Okay, just gonna share the lastest picture we took ! hahaha too lazy to upload so many! (:

NEW COVER!

2011-08-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! Whats up! I know its been a LONG time since i blog. But i'm back!

Okay, talk no more! I did a cover, pls do watch and support!

TYVM! <3

heres the link to my youtube channel! http://www.youtube.com/user/Bubblesvicious?feature=mhee

And i'll upload my video here too, but do visit my channel cox i will be doing a cover with my girlfriend! (:

Hope you guys love it! (:

我累了

2011-04-14T00:39:00.001+08:00

I am really tired. Cox you know what? I just reached home. I really dunno what to do. My life is really cruel. Why do this to me?! Even if i say this a million times its not going to help too right? I know. I am still staying strong. Very strong. Everyday i convince myself that i am strong and will be very strong. And that's the reason that i can still survive till now.
After i lost you, after i got this, my life totally suck. What? What can i do, seriously. I just need somebody to tell me. Even you aren't considerate to me, what more can i say? :((((((((

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HAPPY SUNDAY

2011-04-10T15:40:00.001+08:00

Know why? Cox today is my freaking OFF day. Omgf. Damm shiok. if only everyday is my off day. FML seriously. This is gonna end soon! Tmr got work again. And next week got 4 days on afternoon shift which means i will only reach home at 12am!!!! WTF!!! SIAN. but friday off lor. Going out with TWINNY! <3

Thats the only thing that i can look forward to next week.

Anyway, went church in the morning, and had fun with the girls. they are the reason that makes me smile. (:

took cab back to tamp with them and got home. Later going out again for ms.vanitha wedding. Cool or what, indian wedding know! But i kinda lazy to go out leh. So hot, and so far :( CHINATOWN KNOW- in china. HAHAHA Joking.

Okay, i am hungryyyy now. Maybe i shall cook maggie mee to eat? MAYBE UH. HAHA

CRYING IS MY LIFE.

2011-04-09T12:21:00.000+08:00

I cant help but to cry again. I am sorry, but i am really tired. The thought of it really makes me wanna cry. I cried like nobody business. it was really confortable crying. crying because of???? SIP, YOU, SIP, YOU, SIP, YOU. my life is that boring. SIP really makes me so worn out, so tired. I reach home everyday like 12 midnight, with no time left for myself, for my friends, for my family. And yet still there is projects left. What is this seriously? cant even let me enjoy my 3 months of work. FML

Bye, i am off to cry again.

CHEWY CHEWY

2011-04-05T10:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my first day of attachment. Working at Chewy junior. Well, it was tiring, super! But can learn alot of things i guess. And the working hours are irregular. I will only start work at 3.30pm today and will ends at abt 10.30pm? By the time i reaches home, it will be like midnight aldy leh. And the lunch break is only 30 mins. WTF!!! Gotta stand for like 7-8 hours and then take train and bus back tat time still need to stand. Can die man. The space in the shop is like super small, damm squeezy. But what to do? I gotta endure it for 3 months kay! But luckily, the collegues there are nice people, and treat me well. Thats one good point. But we have to wear their uniform leh, haha, got cap. I NO LIKE CAP laa. HAHAHA!

SATURDAY-SATURDAY

2011-04-05T10:45:00.000+08:00

Saturday was with annie. Went to meet her at abt 4 plus at airport cox she has work. So slack there and then we went bugis for swirl art. HAHA, had some time locating the shop cox its quite inside the streets. Had fun night with her! Doubt we can meet up any sooner cox of my attachment! :(

IKEA WITH HIM.

2011-04-05T10:16:00.000+08:00

I know i shouldnt post this anymore. But i dunno, i still miss him. Went IKEA with him for dinner as he can only book out on friday. So went there to eat, and i didnt wanna eat, but he kept forcing me to eat!! We ordered meatballs and pasta. Well, i realy like the way he talks, random laa. Then went tampines mall, thinking to watch a movie, but there isnt any nice one. SO, went to walk walk and finally we decided to go to swensen. LOL, shit manz. Ordered each an ice-cream. WTF!! mine was banana split, his was chocolate caramel smth one. Then he kept laughing at all my efforts for running went off. EVIL!

And till we finished, got nothing to do, so went arcade. Yah, Arcade. WTH right?! we played time crisis and the mario kart. He won the mario kart, i won the time crisis. And then, he send me to the bus int, waited for the bus with me. So that marks our night. 

I MISS HIM, DEARLY.
THOUGH I KNOW, ITS OVER, BUT THIS IS WHAT I TREASURE.

MARINA BARRAGE!!

2011-04-05T10:10:00.000+08:00

Last wednesday, went barrage with twinny, carleen and Jia wei. Well, Only me and twinny arrive early and we were there like crazy girls. Kept taking picturessss and playing with ourselves while waiting for the rest to come. HAHA. And went to marina square for shopping and we went xin wang cafe for dinner. though i didnt ate much but they kept forcing me to eat. LOL haha, we slack there till the shop almost closed. And the waitress was like erm, can ur leave aldy?? HAHAHA!

Really had alot of fun with them, i wish time can go back. 

Trying very hard

2011-03-29T19:13:00.000+08:00

I am trying very hard on something now. I am really pushing myself to the limit. Yes, Weight loss. I am serious right now. Not really eating, or rather little portions. And Running almost everyday. I hope i succeed this time. It tough, and torturous for me, but i will hang on there. Maybe not so much of you, but for myself.

Anyway, he has exams today, although its over. I hope he can get through it with an A! Sent him a msg specially to wish him. He told me yesterday though that he wanna play pokemon. LOL

But i shouldnt be writing abt him anymore, no more! STOP!! FORGET FORGET FORGET.

GIRLFRIENDS.

2011-03-28T19:47:00.000+08:00

Went out with the girls yesterday after church. Met them at orchard then went to K. Haha, yes K again. i bet its the last K for me before my attachment starts :( We went to cine one and then went to eat. But as usual, i didnt eat, cox wasnt hungry. So then we went to Forever 21, uniqlo, new look and do some shopping. I bought a green tee at forever 21! YAY man! I got it. haha, gotta wear soon! (: And then we got nothing much to do, so just kept walking around and round till we decided to sit down, take polariods and picturesss!! And till we are tired, went home after that. HAHA, meeting up soon again for sun-tanning session!!! <3

Love!

Just look at her expression! hahaha!

Hello! where are we??!

I CANT SEEMS TO FORGET YOU.

2011-03-28T13:47:00.000+08:00

So what's with it? i feel like crying whenever i see ur pictures. Maybe it was just my fault, i shouldnt have gone to see it. But i miss you, i surely do. So i couldnt resist looking at your pictures. It didnt really started, but it also didnt ended beautifully enough. Your presence really made me felt more lonely. If i could choose, i would choose not to know u at all. I bet u would never know how hurt am i. And all this builts up. U gave me promises, u bombarded me with those words, u said u will be there, u said. But why is it always like that. I dun't understand. Is it my fault? Maybe. I really miss u, but i will try forgetting you. I will try, i am strong and i will get through this. But i dun think i have the courage to carry on or get into a new realtionship lately or any longer. I am hurt, and i am really scared.

Maybe i should have try harder, in forgetting you.

HAPPY WITH TWINNY!

2011-03-25T15:39:00.000+08:00

Days were always great with twinny. For the past mon,tue, and wed went out with twinny! Monday we went pulau ubin cycle! It was damm tiring. But we really enjoyed! Although i flew out from the bicycle- got bruises on my knee and leg. HAHAHA. 

Tuesday, Twinny came over to my place and we ran,swam and do sauna! SHIOK. It was an exercise day for us!! We had lots of fun even its just exercising. (:

Wednesday, we went to donate blood at HSA. Though last minute she cant donate, thus i went in alone. The needle was quite big okay. And the pain killer hurts! But the process was fast. Then we went town shopping. I bought a pair of sandals and accessories the moment we went into the shop. But dunno why, we were both so tired that day, so we sat at KFC stone. And we went back super early that day, like 6 plus 7? 

SIP LAUNCH

2011-03-24T20:32:00.000+08:00

Today is a bad day for me actually. Although my SIP placement was okay, but i still dun feel good. Not because of this. Some other things. I thought U will add colours to my life, ur presence was something that i anticipate. If i would have known all these had happen, i wish i didnt know u at all in the first place. I really dunno how clear am in in the right mind to go to this extend. Its just the beginning, or not even the beginning. But i am like crazy over you. Its really a misery for me, you know. All i needed was ur love. Finally, i couldnt kinda hold back anymore, i broke down and cried in my bed. It was a release for me. Its like finally. U said so much to me, so it was just empty promises? Lies? Whatever. I kept thinking and i really couldnt figured out why. Really. I felt such a failure, in all aspect. I couldnt sort of take it anymore, i ran outside for 3 rounds. And i kept walking, till my legs go wobble. I sat alone at the swimming pool, looking at the sky, hoping i will get an answer, but all i got was a blank of mind. U kept appearing in my mind and i really cant take u off. 

Please, I doubt i'll have a peaceful sleep tonight if this is not settle. 

I love you.

I MISS YOU,

2011-03-24T20:25:00.000+08:00

I am chillin' in my bedroom
Paintin' pictures in the sky
I wanna tell you that I love you
but you make words so hard to find

You take my breath away
You take my breath away

I am starin' out the window
Paintin' pictures in the night
& I have never felt so naked
as when your lookin' in my eyes

And if I die
Here tonight
You'll know why

You take my breath away
You take my breath away
There's nothin' left to say
You take my breath away

Ill take it slow
Cuz' I know for sure
That we were meant to be
And baby it hurts
Cuz' I want you so bad
Just open your eyes and see x 2

You take my breath away
You take my breath away
There's nothin' left to say
You stole my heart away

A physical without soul

2011-03-24T08:28:00.001+08:00

I am really starting to doubt this. Why all good things always send to come to an end soon? Perhaps i was wrong, i was mistaken. But am i really that naive? Sometimes i really wish all these didn't even happen in the first place.

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tears

2011-03-21T22:40:00.001+08:00

Why do u have to always do this to me. Maybe its time i asked myself if its worth it. I am aldy shedding tears for u when all this hasn't begin. Am i really wrong? Its a torture.

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i don't understand a single why

2011-03-21T01:10:00.001+08:00

Why do i always have to cry behind the closed doors?

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DONT ASK ME WHY.

2011-03-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!

So what now? Goodness Me! I dunno, why are u like that? if u really care, u wouldnt even. ARGH. forget it!

Its like, unexplainable feelings, but yet it seems so superficial, so what shall i do now? I am like falling deeper and deeper into this. I think i'm abit ridiculous, just like you. Fancy playing along? NAIVE- i would call myself. But u always make me felt otherwise! WHY? can u not be so nice to me pls! It confuse me!!!!!

ITS A KBOX WITH GFs!

2011-03-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

we are being random again, went to kbox after church today. HAHA. goody goody. It was a fun filled sunday! Laughter and fun! Really, never been so happy before!! Thanks fellow sister and brother in christ!! <3
And i reached church today at like 9.20am? its like EXCEPTIONALLY EARLY. Zzz

Random, but i took picture with my doggie! (:

mixed feelings

2011-03-20T02:37:00.001+08:00

Its too complicated. I dunno how to react. I am feeling not very good now seriously. I've been thinking thru. But i Cant seems to work that out.
Fml seriously. Perhaps i really made a wrong decision. And i Cant turn back.

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Happy Girl.

2011-03-19T20:45:00.003+08:00

Its his b'day tmr. Maybe i am silly. But dunno why,there is just this special feeling within us.He asked me to bake a cake for him, lol! i dun even have an oven can?! then asked me treat him eat what shagri-la. HAHAHAHA. He told me smth. hahaha, SHHHH. Well, maybe it will turn out well one day?!

Dunno why, i felt like i'm in love now. -.-"

Just wanna say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YY! [:

BBQ NIGHT!

2011-03-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

WOOHAAA! Had a BBQ organised by church ytd. It was fun, i went early to help out with some work. We cooked the stingray, and its damm nice! WEEHEHE. And we played some games and chit chat all the way! had a wonderful night!

zixuan.

Kaileng <3

Part of the youths.

both brothers!


heavenly nice.

王力宏

2011-03-17T13:44:00.000+08:00

HE IS JUST WAY TOO AWESOME. HANDSOME AND TALENTED. WHATS MORE TO ASKED FOR? HIS SONGS ARE JUST TOO NICE OKAYY.

MY PERFECT LOVE <3

PASSED[:

2011-03-17T12:53:00.000+08:00

Woke up to results- all PASSED! luckily. NO SUPP, NO SUPP! Its been like a reminder to myself ever since year 1, when i failed 3 papers and had to take 3 SUPP papers. Omg man, thats they worst nightmare ever. And good enough, i cleared all. Since then, i didnt wanna take SUPP anymore. At least just a PASSED. HEHEHEHE. But grades and GPA arent that fantastic though, i knew it anyway. Didnt really work hard this sem. Hope i am attached to a good company and get good testimony and grades.

Had a good talk with Joshua, he's a good guy. We used Watsapp! hehe (:

BIG MOMMA, LIKE FATHER, LIKE SON!

2011-03-16T19:37:00.000+08:00

Watch this comedy yesterday with Hsueh ting! Okay, its quite funny. Like the way both of the actors act in the movie. Thats the part that makes me laugh (: Thought i really needed something to stilmulate my laughing hormones. Hasn't been laughting really wholeheartedly lately.we had KOI after that and do some shopping. (:Okay, tampines is somewhat boring now to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! WEEEHEE!

MY PIKACHUUU TOYY!! ONE OF IT OWNS IT TO HT! THANKS DEAR! (:

WE HAD KOI, YES AGAIN.

KAN BEI!

ANDROID ROCKS.

2011-03-15T22:52:00.001+08:00

Hello. Posting from my android nowwwwwwww(:

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((:

2011-03-14T21:10:00.001+08:00

I've finally took up the courage to sent her the mail. Hopes everything goes smoothly

CHRIS MEDINA

2011-03-14T20:22:00.001+08:00

This is such a touching song. You should read more about his story. He is a contestant of American idol.

HOW MANY GUYS CAN BE LIKE HIM?

LKH 21ST BIRTHDAY!

2011-03-14T19:45:00.001+08:00

Last saturday it was my beloved classmate-LOO KIN HONG'S 21st b'day! Well, it was really a fun day. Gathering with sec sch mates were the most awesomest thing! WE ROCKS! And he asked me to perform guitar and singing with my another friendddddd. LOL, it was damm nerve wrecking kays! SCARYYY. But it turns out well ah. SO MANY PAIRS OF EYES ON US. hahahaha. We had really lots of fun. And after the whole party, we went over to kim tian rd for supper ah. But i didnt eat, cox wasnt hungry. Just tag along. I will update the pictures soon, cox i doesnt have alllll! (:

WE ROCKS!

His majesty, Loo.

FYI, its a Vegetarian cake okay!

TWINNY!

DARLING!

JIA WEI!


LOVE.LOVE.LOVE!

MY EX-HAUNTED LOVER!!

2011-03-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

Went for the movie with mu-mu. It was quite okay, not that scary, though we still covered our faces with jacket thru the movie. HAHAHAHA!

After the movie, mu-mu went to meet her friend and jw came over to practise guitar and singing with me for LKH B'day on sat! (:

Life's Great!

TAN JIA WEI!! <3

KOI!!

MY GUITAR- Nice right??!?!

YIAOW GUI DAY!

2011-03-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

Okay, first things first. Twinny's-day-out! We were actually intending to go cycling at ECP but it rain. So we went shopping and suddenly twinny says wanna go mostafa centre, so we went there. HAHA. And its so good there okay! I bought something for myself and my dad. LOL!! well, its really nice hanging out with TWINNY <3 and we went to eat TIM SUM after that!! WEEEHEE!!

I HUA CHI

DAMM NICE (Y)

I wanna Laugh like nobody's business.

2011-03-08T19:22:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i am able to laugh wholeheartedly.

The EMOTIONS.

2011-03-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

Why cant i control my emotions? I always let my imagination, my feelings control me. This is not the first time and everytime u take control, it really feels like knife piercing through my heart one by one. I feel i am like the only one against the world, nobody will ever think of my existence, This is pathetic and scary! :( I really dunno why i cant help to control my feelings right now. That i burst into tears, I think its just all adds up to these. After all, how do i face it? I am such a failure, such a useless piece of shit. Cant handle things, cant control life. Cant have the desired control. Everything lies in me, every single problem. If u are wondering who, its me. I dont deserve ur pity, ur sympathy. I wish life can be over again, then i would live a brand new life. But now, i just wish i could die. And go to heaven to join jesus, becox thats my real home that only he will adores me and i will live in peace that i cant get on my eartly home. Dont ask me why,what how. I am really not feeling good, and i dunno how long i have to recuperate to get back to the usual me. Maybe 1 hour? 1 day, 3 days, 1 week? 

In short, i wish i can just die, But its not as simple as it is. I cant just die. I have my family. Thats it.

Its-Sunday!

2011-03-06T21:35:00.000+08:00

Went kbox with kai leng after church today. We are kinda ramdom again but just felt like going so just went! And some pictures, ntg much to blog about though (:

THANK YOU SWEETIE! <3

EXAMS ARE OVER!

2011-03-03T20:59:00.001+08:00

Okay, well actually exams are long over. But just didnt get time to blog. Just right after exams, got fever and was sick :( I think gt slight food posioning. But am fine after a day of long long rest. This exam, its different. Different from what we would usually do. We didnt know where to go. We lost our direction. 

Went Kbox yesterday at scape with girlies!! Had a wonderful time and long catch up with them!! <3<3<3

And just went for job interview with mu and we just thought of going k, so go again!! LOL. I WENT KBOX twice IN A ROW eh. Like zai or wat?? hahaha. & i had KOI just nowwww. TEEHHEE. Okay, i am going to cook kimchi noodles for my dinnerrr!! I'm hungry.

Annie. Jia Wei. Chevy <3

(:

Mu-chen

Thank you mu-mu <3

Totally love this heels.<3

Dear friend, I miss u alot, really deeply. I long for ur return everyday, I miss the laughter, the days we had. Memories just keep popping up in my mind like nobody elses business. Its torturing me like these. I feel it every day every night every moment. Just kept asking me, what should i do or rather what can i do. I think i might need more time. Or am i just avoiding?

You know you never realized how good someone is to you until they leave your life. Are u thinking what i am thinking?

AND ROBERT PATTINSON IS HOT. AKA EDWAED CULLEN. LOL <3<3<3<3

NO MORE.

2011-02-27T19:44:00.000+08:00

No more sadness, no more sorrows, no more tears. I hope everything has come to an end. I'm tired of guessing, tired of acting blind, acting deaf, acting like a fool. I'm waking up after giving it so many tries. Just blame it on fate. That has ended.

Tmr is My main paper- and i haven finish studying!!! Had a caramel frapuccino to purke me up! (:

Finally.

2011-02-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

The day is coming, finally. I know it, i can sense it. I am pessimistic about it. Before anything happens, i just want to dedicate this song to u. It says wat i meant to u. I hope u are listening..

&& thank you mu mu- u know what i mean. U 've me okay! <3

Do you know about C.H.E.R.I.S.H?

2011-02-24T20:50:00.001+08:00

How many of you know the real meaning behind this word, cherish. Its just yet another simple vocab found in the dictionary. But it definately carries great meaning behind it. All of you likes to be cherish, but not all of you knows how to cherish people. I dunno why, but this time i am not longer sad, no longer mindful, no longer mad. Perhaps, i've learnt to take things the lighter way, or i've gave up. Its either one, i know. But i've yet to figured out. Why are people always so complacent? Will they learnt a lesson until they've lost the person? Or it is always we have to settle things the hard way? I am not feeling anymore guilty because i know strongly myself that i've done whatever possible to keep this going, but seriously i really dunno what has happen to change this. And if someday, something happen, the only thing i regret most is not knowing what is the reason behind all these that happens. For all i've done, just take it lightly, i dun asked for any returns because i really cherish this. But if u were to abuse my trust and all that i've done, i really dunno how long i could carry on going. I've hang on for so long after since that, and go all way to prevent that from happening, but it seems that its coming. The worst thing that i could ever anticipate. 

Sometimes, i just need somebody to listen to me, to lend me a ear, to shower me with care. In the past, yes. But now, i dunno how. In some days, i just felt like crying my lungs out, but who am i facing? My Dog? My Stitch? My pikachu? is this all i want? Perhaps, yes, perhaps, no. I dunno. I dun even know why i cried. Its just there is too many, too many letters inside my heart. i need to cry some out to fill in more. U asked me why? why not asked urself back, Why? i am just too trusting, and let my guards down all the time, i always let my imagination take control of me. Whenever you are not happy, i asked myself, what have i done? Did i do something that saddens u, or make u angry? For 10 times, i asked myself this question 10 times. Anything that happens to u, i blame myself first. I am afraid that i am the one whose making u angry. Not because i am guilty, because i care, i cherish. And that's everything, really. I am happy, but i am always crying behind those forced smiles. 

I've not changed all these while, its something, someone, somewhere that change you to really distance me so much...

The sharp knife of a short life.

2011-02-22T13:16:00.000+08:00

I Love my Android. Nobody can ever seperate us.

<3<3<3

What if everybody just leaves you?

2011-02-21T18:52:00.001+08:00

I am starting to doubt myself. I constantly asked myself who am i. There are alot of friends around me, but how many of them are real, how many in the end will stay by your side? Why do people only think of me when they needed help, favour. Why do people only think of me when they needed compainent. Why do people only think of me when they needed another substitute. I kept pondering over these question to myself, but i know i wont get any answer. I never give up in having faith, things will turn better. But why cant i lead a better life, a simpler one. Why is it that things that are always mine will eventually be somebody elses one. And i am always at the losing end no matter what. Nobody will ever initiate things, and i really dunno why i am going through all these shit. I always put all above me, but nobody seems to appreciate. I do admit, there are some friends that will always be there for me, stay with me and care for me. For that i greatly appreciate. Without these people, i wouldnt have survive so long. Friends are what makes u stay on in life, to have the courage to carry on and conquering the obstacles. I will cherish my friends no matter what, but it works both way. I need people to appreciate me too!

Pictures taken today, random i know. But these are the people, i appreciate, really! (:

IF I DIE YOUNG, WILL U BURY ME IN SATIN?

2011-02-18T16:53:00.001+08:00

Totally in love with this song, and this guy is really talented.

This song is by the band perry, If i die young. 

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

Happy Girl

2011-02-17T12:26:00.000+08:00

Went mac @ airport to study ytd. Mu suggested it though, was to study in school, but i thought airport was a nicer place. Thus, we went there to study! HEHE, really had some quiet time to start touching my rusty notes. And memorize the pathways!! Then, we went to took the changi aiport A3 paper!! WAHAHAHA, fun hor, Mu??? HEHE.

And i got my new phone yesterday! WOOHOO. Gotta download all the games i want man! Aw, data plan only starts after 5 days, cox need time to switch user from starhub to singtel. BORINGGGGGGGGGGGG! RAWWWRRRR!

And Rock is back!! He is hosting wrestlemania'27! Gosh! I thought he was cool at first, until he insulted John cena!! WTF?!

Okay, going to airport soon to study with mu mu! <3

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY PEOPLE!!

2011-02-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

Happy V day to all! I made these valentines day card for my poly cliques! Its nice nice niceey kay! LOL HEHEHE. Today is a day with mu-mu. We went for lecture in the afternoon and then went library to watch movie. "Suspect X", Its nice eh, but we cant finish cox 5pm got another lecture. So we gonna continue tmr, wahahahaha. And today, just walked home again from school. Yeah it took me another hour again cox i was walking damm slowly, then bypass blk 201 there to buy food before going home. 

Look at these cards!! Happy Valentine's day GFs!

♥

To cherie

To Hsueh Ting

To Mu-chen

To Pei shan

To Hui Qin

Cherie

♥

Mu chen

♥

Chevlerie

♥

Oh And look at this cat, Its PIKACAT! Lol, got this from my friend's Fb. Gosh, if only i can own one of these. haha, but its abit poor thing. And oso scary. LOL

To look or to not look tmr?

2011-02-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

Hello!! Just came back frm my church service. Well, its a hot hot afternoon. NO LIKE MANY MANY. haha, gosh i am going to get heat stroke in this kinda weather man. Anyway, went visiting to one of my aunt's friend's place and got a angpow! wahahahaha. And saw the little doggy there, its so cute!  As usual, getting ready for the rest of the day and tmr. Its valentine's day! For those who are in a relationship, well, its a day to go enjoy with ur love ones and celebrate this special day. But Who says valentine is only for the one who have already found their other half? Its for everyone okay! Those who are single, go out and hang out with ur friends and families! Its a time to enjoy life! And a time to show ur friends how much u appreciate them, show ur families, how much u love them! 

Anyway, i came across a page in teenage magazine. It says under horoscope, virgo, Love: Love is in the air! Your crush is finally taking notice of you and may soon decide to make a move. Keep an open mind and embrace this new relationship but refrain from being too hasty. Go with the flow and let it blossom at its own pace. 

Is it true, Love? Have u really notice me?????????

Btw, i love my theme song!!

♥

Cute Anot??

As usual, doing cam-whoring.

Singapore FLYER!

2011-02-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

Went to Singapore Flyer today with Mum and Dad. Haha, cox there is no SCHOOL todayyyy! YIPPPEE! didnt noe singapore is so nice till i am on top of the world. haha, but its quite expensive, $30 per ticket. LOL anyway, need to do my project assignment now. Good day for all! (:

The hawker there, they renovated into old singapore style. NICE!

WWE- WORLD HEAVY WEIGHT CHAMPION RATED R SUPERSTAR- EDGE!!

2011-02-09T20:43:00.001+08:00

You think you know me 

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life 
bitter place and a broken dream 
And we leave it all behind 

On this day it's so real to me 
Everything has come to life 
Another chance to chase a dream 
Another chance to feel 
Chance to feel alive 

i have been defeted and brought down 
droped to my knees when hope went 
out ohhhhh they time has come to change my ways 

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life 
bitter place and a broken dream 
And we leave it all leave it all behind (yeah) 

I'll never long for what might have been 
no regret won't waste my life again ohhhh 
I won't look back 
I'll fight to remain 

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life 

A bitter place and a broken dream 
And we'll leave it all behind 

On this day it's so real to me 
Everything has come to life 
Another chance to chase a dream 
Another chance to feel 
Chance to feel alive 

Fear will kill me, all I could be 
Lift these sorrows 
Let me breathe, could you set me free 
Could you set me free 

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life 
A bitter place and a broken dream 
And we'll leave it all behind 

On this day it's so real to me 
Everything has come to life 
Another chance to chase a dream 
Another chance to feel 
Chance to feel alive

I love this song and the lyrics so much!! Okay, its a theme entrance song of Edge- WWE World Heavyweight Champion. & btw, my blog song is this song!!! <3<3<3

For those who doesnt know who is Edge, here u go !

Now u know, why i love WWE so much. If u still doesnt know, then too bad. HAHA 

EDGE!

RATED R SUPERSTAR-EDGE!


Christain and Edge- Best!

Xue's 19th Blast!

2011-02-08T17:50:00.000+08:00

Today's Hseuh Ting's B'day!! we went to buy cupcakes and a polo tee for her at uniqlo! I thought the tee was niceeyy! (: And we surprise her at the bench and gave her the gifts :D today ended school early, so went home after celebrating for xue ting!

And i went to my small shopping mall beside my house to buy some sationary and i bought barley for cherie! (: gotta give her tmr! HEHE. Cox i think she's getting sick, gotta heal her!! Tests and all is coming up, better not to be sick! And i bought smth for mu,hq,cherie. Its a small file laaa, haha, cox i think its really nice, so just buy for them! 

Btw, sorry for not returning the lighter to you personally, but i didnt noe u arent same class as her. So for whatever reason, i just pass to her. But u need not say it till i did it purposely and gave me that attitude.I know, i've apologise right?!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUE TING<3

I LOVE THIS PICTURE!

SAN GONG ZHU<3

THE CUPCAKES WE BOUGHT FOR HER!

BIRTHDAY GIRL!

XUE.VY

XUE.MU

PEI SHAN.XUE

XUE. HUI QIN

XUE.CHERIE

WWE ROCKS

2011-02-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

Now really into WWE man! Omg, they are so HOT can, okay. some of you might not agree, but definately they are. LOL, some said its fake, like in the sense more of scripted laa. Even so, i still think WWE is nice. Its all about fighting anyway. I will sit infront of the TV every night to wait for the wrestling. HAHA, whats nicer is, my grandma would accompany me watch too! And guess what? her knowledge of WWE is like better than mine. LOL, cox she likes to watch ahh.

My favourite is John Cena, cox he simply rocks kay! He can fight, and never plays foul. He also acted in movies eh!! Now, recently, there is a new group formed known as The new Nexes. And i think the leader, CM PUNK is not really good at first. But, now i think he is HOT can. LOL!!!!!!!!

Some pictures below! See SEe SEE!!

JOHN CENA! <3

He is CM PUNK (:

Back to NORMAL

2011-02-07T18:20:00.000+08:00

WOW, had a good chinese-new-year! Played mahjong,Cards, ate goodies, went visiting and getting ang pows!! Now, its all back to normal. But chinese new year is not over yet, haha! However, we have to start school aldy!! school is hectic now, all projects, assignments, test coming up. Really cant imagine.

Yesterday, my friends and relatives came over to my place for lunar new year celebration, and we had lion dance and my mum ordered buffet. We really had fun! All the people at my house there crowd around to see the lion dance though, it was nice!! How sad, its all over..

Okay, Just got home and bought some TOM YAM  ingredients and i cooked TOM YAM soup!! <pictures below> !!

Btw, i think CM punk is HOT now okayy! Yes, JOHN CENA IS STILL MY FAVOURITE THOUGH :D

Here are the pictures! (:

My reunion dinner-Steamboat!

Lion Dance in my house

The mess after that. haha

F.R.I.E.N.D.S F.O.R.E.V.E.R

CHERIE

CHEVY

HSUEH TING

PEI SHAN

THE BUFFET FOOD

SO CUTE RIGHT? LIKE OMG!!! THE RIGHT 2 IS MY DOGGIES.

HSUEH TING MADE THIS FOR MY FAMILY! <3

GF<3

KAILENG & CHEVY <3

HER NAME IS TOTO!

YU SHENG, HUAT AHHHHH!

THE CROWD IN MY HOUSE..

OH YEAH, THIS IS THE TOM YAM SOUP I JUST COOKED. HAHA

Its a BEE-SY Chinese New Year!!

2011-02-01T19:40:00.001+08:00

This cny is a busy one, cox there are just so many assignments to hand up! Omg, cant imagine after cny, whats the workload gonna be like!!! This is really crazy. Dunno how TP plan their schedule one! And 28 Feb will be my PBPN paper, this is really OMGGGGGG!! Cox PBPN is really like AILEN to MEEEE!!

Afternoon, cherie came over to my house and we played MD[Again] (: haha, but we like ahhh. Also played wiiii!!! So fast, another day has past, and tmr its CNY EVE!!! Gonna have reunion dinner. BUT tmr got tut and lecture, worst still got to meet for proj. But is a must, cox proj gotta due right after cny week. This is like a :( X 1000000000000000!!

And to ABC- pls do not keep quiet by not replying WHO U ARE. U are really pissing me off, and really spoilt my day. THANKS TO U, COWARD.

Back again

2011-01-31T20:23:00.000+08:00

okay, cny is ard the corner, and is really busy getting ready for it. Decorating my house, buying new year clothes, food.... Its really FUN!

However, there are so many quizes, test, exams and projects haunting me. This is really bad. 

And this whole week pontang all lectures, haha, cox the new year mood is aldy here!!!!!!!

And to the ABC, pls stop fooling ard here at my blog, this is not somewhere u talk nonsense. Its really irritating not putting ur name there. Is it becox u got no guts to put it? too SHAME to face me is it?!Dun think i dunno who u are. Or not say WHO U ARE if u really wanna know the truth. If not i will LOCK my blog immediately.

Long Long hours

2011-01-28T22:44:00.001+08:00

Finally, some time to blog. Had been really busy over the past few days. Over projects and all. cant understand why projects are due after CNY. Met twinny just now, and we really had a good laugh! really enjoyed the time with her (:

life gets stagnant when i have to play the guessing game. I'm so tired. Dont you think of my feelings when u do all these? I dont feel good. Nobody will understand how i feel anyway. U dont even bother abt mw. I feel like a fool all these while. I not not being ridiculous, just dont feel good. I'm growing to detest her, my heart is so pain. Pls dont leave me alone.

Why do things always go the opposite side that i want it to be. I'm so freaking tired, I dont care if the world is going to collapse, but pls just give me the rights i deserve.

My heart is like weighing a million tons, always, forever.

People always dont appreciate what i've done for them, am i really so stupid? That until a point where its a Must thing for me to be nice to them. Its really heartening, can they change?

There is up your service workshop tmr at 8.30am!!!! TO 6pm.
OMG @@

Swensen today!

2011-01-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

Went to celebrate my church friend b'day at swesnsen earlier on.i had breaded chicken (Y) thumbs up! Super nice, hasnt had such a nice treat this few weeks. And alsom had oreo ice cream cake. OMG, its heavenly!!! But their service really sucks man! LOL dont feel like elaborating much tough. Had to do projects and complete my fpqap research, this is torturing. But thinking abt the nearing of CNY really cheers me up! ^^

Although things are sort of stable now, but i do know whats going on. Sometimes we just choose to ignore certain things cox we still want to keep it going. Not that we dun really care anymore. I shall not be complacent abt this and continue on with my life. 

you noe, but sometimes when u think back, when u have the time to stop and think abt life. What have u actually accomplish? Do u have any regrets at all? Certainly, if i were to be given a choice again, i will choose to live my life again, but friends and families, i will choose to reamain the same. I love them, it might not be enitrely their fault, or might not be mutual, but the problem doesnt lie in them.Perhaps i should be the one leaving.

Things are starting to look at the brighter side, but i still have a heavy heart. 

i dun wanna be like her

New hair. new Life

2011-01-23T17:11:00.000+08:00

Had a new hairstyle peeps! I perm my whole hair this time, wanted something new though. LOL

will be uploading pics but it arent that clear on photos though. Well, sat there for like 4 hours?! i went Jean yip at like 5 plus, and only get to finish at 9 plus. LOL

Tiring though, and had our supermarket tour on this saturday (22 Jan). It was alright, rather everything turns our smoothly. (: then night time, went ikea with my parents to buy some things. I bought a few cactus! It was beautiful :D

Just had our Potluck today at church, i brought tau sa pia there, and there were great food! Good fellowshipping too:D

Now had to chiong my projects, report, research and tmr there is commN quiz! OMG, cant even enjoy my sunday! and cant go chinatown today because of all this shit!


My new perm (:

My beautiful cactus! <3

Another day of my life

2011-01-20T19:55:00.000+08:00

Finally get to blog again. Well just came back frm simei, bought my crumpler bag!! (: quite Ex though. Yesterday's catering tech we cooked japanese cruisine! OMG!! my group is in charge of miso soup, and it was nice, though abit salty ah. There is teriyaki chicken, tempura vegetables, mochi and veg. OMG, nice nice nice though i think chicken is the best!!!

Well had our fpqap lab test today. omg, i screw up everything man. LOL and there is pdm quiz 2 tmr, havent even study can! Nvm, i wanna go watch mobtv and eat my bread! hahahaha

Ps: chevy, pls let things improve more, and no more going back to the past, its miserable.

OUR JAP FOOD!!!

IDOIT LEMON TEA!

2011-01-18T19:55:00.002+08:00

Excuse me, if you dun have concrete evidence, pls dun accuse me of what no forgiveness kinda thing can! Idiot sia this person- lemon tea!!!!!!!!

see whose at fault first can! and God will not any how punish people, god knows who is the one who is not doing justice you ass hole! Fucker!!!

Cruise

2011-01-18T19:12:00.001+08:00

WOW. finally back from cruise. Had a fun time there relaxing though. Not much things to play there, but its quite enjoyable. The crews were very friendly and warm. And there are alot of handsome ang mohs! HAHAHA

The food were okay, played bingo,went to sauna with cherie and after that went for a swim and jacuzzi!!! And went to the disco there, had some fun and dance!!!! We oso went to the casino and played rollette, win some $$ and was nice experience. It was the most fun i would say. Haha

Watch the performances and went to the top deck to play golf, watch sceneries and oso went down to penang when we reach there. we went to the peranakan museum which was really amazing. It was nice and can get to learn some culture of peranakan. But time flies really fast, and it ended really quickly. Now am back in singapore :( had to start studying for exams, projects and assignment. Really miss the cruise.

And monday, after we arrived in singapore, we rush back to TP for lessons that starts at 9am. LOL, that was super early. And my head was still like spinning non stop, had headache and motion sickness, really feel like vomiting. So after tut, took cab home and slept alot of hrs! Until next day. haha

PS: i hope things are getting abit better, to try not to think abt it, look at it at a brighter side, chevy.

Some pictures below (:

the peranakan museum

The ancestor hall

Using tower to made this!

FML

2011-01-13T09:57:00.003+08:00

I dunno why i am living in this world, i shouldnt have been here in the first place. WTF am i here? so irritating right? Looking at all the pictures, i just couldnt understand why. WHY is it always like that? I am not a substitute, I am not a rubbish, I am not a FOOL.

why do people treat me this way? Do u noe everytime now when i thought of coming to school, i fear alot. I think abt them, i think abt what they do. I feel that there is so many secrets btw us. I tried not to think, but it doesnt work that way. I've not talk bad abt u, not a single time at all. But i think u failed me. TOTAL degrees of changes. U dun have to show this infront of me, it make me look like a fool. I dun feel good, i dun LIKE! Excuses and excuses i've come up for u, but it just proves me right everytime.

There is just so much to tell u, but do u think i've the courage to say? Ur actions aldy showed me everything, i dunno, perhaps its me again. But sometimes i really wonder if i vanish, will the world be better?

These things are bottling up in my heart, no more space, no more room. What if it burst?

I've so much so much to say, but who to tell? I'm scared and tired of humans tricks. I cant take it anymore.
Why is it not u? its simple, cox ur actions say it all. Everything changes, everything.

And I dun have the courage to carry on.

Something-amiss

2011-01-11T19:48:00.000+08:00

There's just something amiss. Just that, cant feel, cant touch, cant see but can sense it. the every little actions makes me feel uncomfortable. Cant u feel i am having a barrier infront of me to u?

Woke up quite late today as school starts at 1, had 2 slices of bread and a glass of milk, then watch tv awhile and went to bath, get ready for school. School was tiring, had pdm lab and cook 

tomato sauce.

Thinking of the lab tmr can kill me, catering tech man! and tmr lesson's at 8am!!!!! I dun like catering tech, lectures always so early, lab always so long and late. Tmr ends at 6 plus, but i guess we gotta stay back and eat our dinner (nyonya dishes) and we are cooking curry chicken. OMG, cant imagine the fats that is going into my body.

Guess not much time to go gym tmr, shall go later and tmr, shall see what exercise i can do! haha

3 more days and its cruise time! Going cruise with cherie!! Omg, cant imagine the fun and nonsense we'll gonna had! :D YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Oh yeah, 13th cells pictures are out!

shout like this?

the 13th cells pictures are out!

Soul-less

2011-01-10T19:46:00.000+08:00

Something is just in between, its invisible, but u can feel it inevitably. The change, its hard to describe, not entirely bad, but still it strikes me. U might not feel it, but it hacks deeply into my heart. Many things that u thought i am unaware of, i am not. I believe in my strong sense of intuition, definately there's something. Nobody's is at fault, but nobody ever thought of me. Its just the way u behave that sinks my thinking deeper and deeper, and makes me think really hard. I always come up with 101 reasons to convince myself that there is nothing of what i am thinking. But i know i have to face the fact sometimes, things just will change. Somethings u thought would stay forever will not, chevy. The rocks will shake, the seas will dried, the world will change. I wonder is it karma? Although i dun really believe in such thing, but what goes around comes around.

Believe me, there is really nothing wrong, really. But its just why like that? I think i've made a very wrong decision in my life that had change my life so drastically. I cant blame her but who do i turn to? Now it just seems history is repeating itself. That scene, cant be off my mind, sometimes i told myself, its nothing actually, really. U're just too too too sensitive. Really made me feel very very awkward, very sadded. Now i understand what is put yourself in other people's shoes. God, change me. Change my life, when i've already attempted to change, to lead a nice good life. I need your strenght to carry on to lean on, to tell my problems to.

Just some thoughts

2011-01-09T17:37:00.003+08:00

Had a talk with my friend, i dunno. But we were talking abt army, and discussing abt the career path and all. She said only with scholarship then will be able to attain high ranks. I thought to myself as long as i work hard, nothing is impossible. But her words kinda like melt me, i think twice abt this. And i felt like crying after that, although friends around me kept encouraging me to go for my dream, but somehow i feel like some are always picking on my dream. Maybe i was too sentsitive, but i just dun feel that they some sort of support me sometimes. And it really discourages me alot :(

Love wrote on his msn nick, "shes single! Yes!" really wondered who? So sad, must be his EC. Haiz, dreams shattered now. How i wish, love, do u hear me??!! 

And sometimes i think i've given too much too much until people dunno how to cherish these and they dunno how to treasure friendship. take it for granted and thought i would always give in no matter what. I'll but there is always a limit to everything. But i've tried to change all the bad in me, but if you dun, its hard. You might fail to realize, but it takes both hands to clap. 

Sheesha

2011-01-09T17:19:00.000+08:00

Friday night went to sheesha to celeb syafiqah's b'day. well, had fun but walk alot too! haha, its quite deep inside though. But the place is comfortable and nice! Still got belly dancing :D Then, they ordered food but i only ordered FRUIT SALAD! LOL, zai sia. haha, and we have fun, ate cake. The sheesha charcoal drop onto me and burn a hole on my shirt!! haha, it was hot and had tried shesha-ing. FUN! There is also belly dancing performance and the belly dancers are all so pretty! they dance very well too!! We all left tgt though, tried to rush for last train/ bus. Reach home abt midnight ah, then slept till noon the next day.. But went gym on sat night (: Finally another work out. And went church in the morning, and had lunch with friends at cafe cartel. Again, i ate ceasar salad. HAHA

The Babes <3

Nikki.Kaly.Chevy

Xue and me

Chevy.Cherie

The sheesha

My fruit salad!

The hole :(

Wan ling.chevy

Belly dancer! She's pretty man!

Chevy.Pei Shan

Birthday Girl!

Sports day!

2011-01-07T15:46:00.000+08:00

Wow, today is a sports day for me! haha, went for a 8am lecture in the morning and then went to sports complex, change and played squash cum badminton. WOOT! Shiok. After that when Elinor and jesslyn they all came, we played badminton tgt. Haha, well then we (cherie, hui qin and i ) went to swimming complex there bathe, cox its cleaner there ah. Hui qin and i went Tmall to buy present for syafiqah, cox its her b;day later! And we are going to celebrate with her (: Was super hungry after buying present, so went for lunch!!!!! And here i am, back home, but soon will be out again. SIAN. haha, actually dun really feel like going out anymore ah. And i cant go gym tonight! Cox going out later!!!!!! :(

Armmedenlian

2011-01-06T21:05:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 3 today, haha. But is still so tired. LOL, my left arm is aching like mad, dunno why, intolerable.went gym yesterday, ran for 25 mins.. And i played wii just now! haha, very long never play already.. Now, booking for badminton and squash court tmr as we are going to play tmr! i ate only a plate of duck rice for lunch and a few biscuits for dinner. Cool or what? haha! 

Anyway, should be going to have dinner at sheesha tmr. playing neopets now, it reminds me alot of memories, it very fun! hahaha

And dunno why i just thought of the tiltle armendenlian- LOL

Ice cream booth!

2011-01-05T20:02:00.000+08:00

Helped out in TP open house today, had to tend the ice cream booth ( kool werkz) ice cream specially formulated by our own TP students (: There were a few new flavours and it tasted great i think!

Had to report at 12pm initially, but dragged until 1.50pm, LOL. Then cherie and i played MD, we played 10 properties. SHIOK, haha. After which, we went to start setting up booth and wait for the guest to come.

Had some pictures taken today with gf using her new phone(: 

It was quite boring actually, just sit down there and wait. I am like falling asleep can! Cox we were at IT school, then i look at the ppl there, i really feel like shutting my eyes off. LOL . CMI

If it was in AS school, i bet there will be lots of fun and laughter. hahha, We sat there and serve the guest till its 5 plus, then we packed and went off. It was like raining heavily, even till now..So walked to concourse and saw Elinor, jesslyn alex they all. So sat down and chatted with them. And went home tgt with elinor cause she was taking the same bus as me. Haha, and really got abit drench cause i didnt bring my umbrella. And i ate only a pancake for breakfast, then fishball for lunch and some biscuits for dinner, is it okay? haha. I know, but my friends kept calling me to take care, dont over strain myself, felt so blessed. 

Gotta head to gym later to work out, probably 8 plus. Wait till the rain got smaller i guess. Went to do threading on my eyebrown just now, it was pain man! but for the sake of beauty... hahaha

And tmr got no SCHOOL. like shiok only!! Can sleep 3 plus today and wake up 3 plus tmr! hahahahahahahahahaha!

I guess we gotta celebrate syafiqah's b;day tmr, should be going arab street sheesah to eat (:

These were the ice cream..

Like very nice? haha

Lepak Lepak

2011-01-04T19:53:00.000+08:00

Went to school like at 8.45am in the morning to go play badminton and table tennis with cherie. Had a tired day! we played almost an hour each, it was fun! Especially table tennis. haha, I beat cherie in Badminton while she beat me in Table tennis. hahaha! After which we went to bath and then went to configure cherie's lappy. Then have to rush for lecture at 1pm. We came in from the back and sat there cox we were late.. lecture was boringggggg. Especially all the terms and all, and we still cant take back our paper, have to wait till tut. Well, went to do our project after lecture and headed to bedok. Went to the new mall, bedok point with cherie, wan ling and yee sin. go there shop and snack. But there isnt any thing much there actually. Just shops. I had a yoghurt and then we went arcade to play! hahahaha! we played shooting, racing car, and basketball! we were like so noisy can! haha, epic! We always fail to go to stage 3, always stuck at stage 2. LOL we had our dinner at bedok hawker center, i must say the food there is really nice! i ate mee hoon kway and cheng teng. SUPER NICE! : D then,took bus home uh.

SCHOOL STARTS!!!

2011-01-03T19:41:00.000+08:00

Today, school started. SIAN. have to wake up early laa, see so tired! so many projects and assignments to hand up/due today! Gosh, had my day Chiong-ing projects and assignments. haha! Well, the best part is, i didnt even bring my 2 papers which is supposedly to be handed up today. Took back out Term test papers for ComN and Pdm today. I did fairly well, pass both with the small mark! COOL? HAHA. Now back home, just ate dinner and going to do some work first to let my food digest beofre heading to gym later!! I am dertermine okay! ARMY ARMY ARMY! 

Cant wait for 14 Jan to come.. MY CRUISE! SHIOK ONLY :D

Countdown to 2011

2011-01-02T15:25:00.000+08:00

Had my countdown party in church! it was awesome! had alot of fun with the ppl there, although its church laa, but definately had fun! Can countdown to the new year with God, and my loves ones. Its a unique one. then, slept at 3am, woke up at 7.30am. SO TIRED! had alot of activities after that. But before the countdown party, went for a farewell party for Zhi zhi (: so cute, sad that he has to go childcare. haha, ate cake, eat curry and alot more! After the countdown, went to meet my catering tech project mates to do our project. Was super dead by then, but we still have to go NTUC, and golden mile complex after that. i was like......... But too bad, have to go do ah. haha. Then went there, see our things and we all went back. Mu and Hq went back in cab, same as me. haha,but alex took a ride from me, and we went tmall. And we went to bought yamazaki bread. Goodness, he eat alot!!! hahaha! and we went to queue for KOI. LOL, he saw the queue he was like, half dead. haha, but in the end we still queue and bought ah (: we bought milk tea LARGE! Shiok bodoh! then he wanted to go ATM, and we headed there, went to bus interchange and say BYE BYE! hahaha, so i headed home from there, super super Ultra TIRED.

ZHI ZHI <3

Going to Church!

Countdown in church!

playing monopoly deal!

they making me up like a X'mas tree. !!

getting ready to throw our eggss!!

specially designed eggs.

having breakfast (:

Oh! and this is wat alex NORMALLY eat for A MEAL?! he bought theseeeee!!

My LARGE KOI!!!

My baby photos! haha nice i noe! (:

Dreams

2010-12-29T16:16:00.000+08:00

Wrote this at my FB: 

I know why ppl are laughing at my dream. Mock for all u want and laugh for all u can. One day, i'll show u what i'm made of, my passion and this is my dream! Just wait, 1 year later!

i wanted ppl to know that i have my dreams and i am gonna pursue it no matter what. Somehow, somewhat, someday, i am gonna prove it to everyone who dont believes in me!